Binge central

It has been a month of binging.  And a month of gaining weight.  I now clock in at 229.2# and feel lucky to be that low!  

Why the binge?  Emotions, I think.  And perhaps cause I tried to kill off Candida which made me nauseous and perversely that made me eat.  I think most people don't eat when they feel sick to their stomach.  I do; it stops the nausea.  But I also eat too much and gain weight.  

Emotions.  As Geneen Roth says in Breaking Free from Emotional Eating, "Most of the time we eat in response to our minds.  Most of the time we feed our bodies without consulting our bodies."  For me that  is too often true.

Well, now that  the aftermath of a mostly alone Christmas is over and the darker days of winter and sugar days of Valentine's Day are done, it is time for me to "get a grip".

After pondering - My new theme is to focus on what I want:  Eat well.  Move well. Sleep well.

That has become my inner mantra and I'm resisting watering it down with 3 steps to... and weekly goal to....   Personally all those strategies make me want to rebel.  Guess I'm contrary by nature as evidenced by being a fat hypothyroid and eating when nauseous.  

And that contrary nature is what I get to work with.  

The last half year has taught me the value of eating well.  I think I still have much to learn about emotional eating and I'll explore some of that as it comes up.

Right now my thoughts are on what has often been the most missing for  me - movement.  My thoughts return to Dr. Ben Lerner's comments in Body by God. As I look back I find, "Inactivity causes you to live briefer, age faster, and grow larger."  Well, that fits.  

I also like, "So if you exercise for ten minutes, then for ten minutes you are actually healthy."  I'll start there. 

And, for today, I'll end there so that thought stays with me and motivates me:

How many minutes am I going to be healthy today?